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Welcome to the Sisyphus web site.

"A society that tolerates misery, a religion that tolerates Hell, a humanity that tolerates war, is to me an inferior one. With all of the strength of my being I want to destroy this human depravation. I damn the slavery, I chase away the misery, I heal the sickness, I brighten the darkness, I hate the hatred.” - Victor Hugo

There exists an obvious fact that seems utterly moral; namely, that a man is always a prey to his truths. Once he has admitted them, he cannot free himself from them. - Albert Camus

From the opening quotes you may gather some of my personal philosophy. I am opposed to any religion that speaks of never ending torment or of a god who demands punishment as satisfaction of his justice.

I come from a traditional Christian background. I was taught from an early age about God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit and the doctrine of the trinity. I was taught about hell and the need for saving faith. I was taught about the Bible being the word of God and how it is inspired and inerrant.

In 1991 I began a search for truth brought about by the failure of traditional doctrine to address the very real world in which suffering, pain, injustice, death and the hopelessness of millions seemed subject to the vicissitudes of daily life.

The answer I received from Christianity was that god wanted to save all of his creation but he could not accomplish his desire because of man's freedom of will. Therefore, many would suffer unending torment because of god's holiness and justice. Thus god would forever be torn between his love for mankind and his own justice. I began to see Jesus the Son of God as a colossal failure for He is the savior of the world however, He only manages to save a very few. This was insufferable!  Unsatisfied with the vision of god the church presented, I determined to start afresh. I set about to “find God" and abandon all doctrine and hold fast only to that which was worthy of a God who John said was love and Jesus called papa.

Therefore, I consciously “choose” Hell over Heaven. If modern Christianity is correct in the doctrine of endless torment, then I have to choose while I am free from suffering and have a somewhat rational mind. I refuse to summit to a god who is either unable or unwilling to redeem the work of His own hand.

Thankfully for me I believe in a God who has purposed in Himself to be the saviour of All men. If I am wrong then heaven for me would be no better than hell. If I am correct at least I know I have lived my life without demeaning my loving Father and even if hell is my destination my Father will not rest until He has rescued me.

I understand the impact on the emotions of what I have just stated. I also hope that the reader understands that I would be the first to abandon the damned and cling to whatever heaven I could find if I were to find myself in a literal hell. This is why I choose now while I am free from the pain of hell or the joy of heaven. I do not understand anyone who believes in a God who is not better than they could imagine Him to be.

Peace, Louie

"Lift me up When my shadow weighs me down
And blackness moves in for the kill"

"Be my Captain and my Boat
My Oars and my Sail
And the Water into which I fall" - a B.C. poet

The name of the web site (Sisyphus) comes from mythology. The gods had condemned Sisyphus to endlessly roll a stone to the top of a mountain. When he reached the top the stone would roll down and he had to begin agan. It reminds me of my quest at times:)

The modern hero, the modern individual who dares to heed the call and seek the mansion of that presence with whom it is our whole destiny to be atoned, cannot, indeed must not, wait for his community to cast off its slough of pride, fear, rationalized avarice, and sanctified misunderstanding. "Live," Nietzsche says, "as though the day were here." It is not society that is to guide and save the creative hero, but precisely the reverse. And so, every one of us shares the supreme ordeal -- carries the cross of the redeemer -- not in the bright moments of his tribe's great victories, but in the silences of his personal despair.

We need not even to risk the adventure alone. For the Heroes of all time have gone before us.

The labyrinth is thoroughly known.

We need only to follow the thread of the hero's path.
And where you had thought to find an abomination,
you shall find a God.
And where you had thought to slay another,
you shall slay yourself.
And where you had thought to travel outward,
you shall come to the center of your own existence.
And where you had thought to be alone,
you shall be with all the world.

(Quoted from Joseph Campbell “The hero with a thousand faces”)